Monday, August 8, 2011

Who am I to judge?

We've all had it done to us. You are at the gas pump minding your own business and then all of the sudden someone sneaks around from the other side of the gas pump and says, "Excuse me..." and starts into their "story." NOW, this is where it gets tricky. The story could be about anything from a flat tire to a lady who is running away from an abusive husband and she needs enough money to get home to her family in Jasper. This is where it gets tricky. What if they ARE ACTUALLY telling you the truth? What if they truly need it? OR... maybe it is a lie. Maybe they are scamming you for money for drugs or alcohol or any other purpose than what they originally asked you for. But, who am I to judge? Is it up to ME to decide if they are lying or telling the truth? Or do I give them what I have and leave it up to God? Now, normally I would have to say no because I never have cash.... but today was different. It was like all the cards fell into place for this lady. I had stopped at a Texaco right by the interstate to get gas and the BOTTOM had just fallen out and it was raining like crazy. I get to the pump and swipe my card and it read ERROR. I went inside and the man told me the satellite was out and I would have to have cash. WELL, I never have cash so I had to drive to the nearest ATM. I get my money out and drive on to a Chevron a little ways down the road. I get out, go inside, and pay for my gas. As soon as I walk back to my truck, this little white car pulls up and these two ladies get out. One sneaks on around the pump to me and tells me this story about her friend whose husband beats her and she needs to drive her to Jasper but they don't have the money. Now she doesn't look scary or out of the ordinary. She looked fairly normal. I had cash this time (because I had to go to the ATM). The only problem was, I only had a $20. So, lucky her gets a $20 (haha this is where it gets good) I pull out of the gas station and pull onto 79 and see this little white car whip out really fast behind me to catch the green light. It was the white car the ladies were driving. They didn't near have time enough to get gas. So I kept an eye on them. As I pulled onto Carson Rd, they did too and turned into ANOTHER gas station! I just laughed out loud and thought... well there went that $20! BUT, I did what I should've done. I tried to help someone in need. I can't guarantee that money went to "good" use, but I did what I felt was right. I have never seen my daddy turn anyone down who asked him for money... so I KNOW that's where I get it from. Help others. Let God be the Judge :) I hope everyone is having a HAPPY MONDAY!

Love,
me

"In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’” (Acts 20:35)

Sunday, August 7, 2011

While I'm Waiting...

 One of my friends sent me a song from the movie Fireproof because she said it reminded her of me. The lyrics are powerful and I thought about it today.
I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Many know my story. If you don't, just ask :) Here is the deal, put God FIRST in every relationship you have. Make sure HE is first and build a relationship based on Him. Heartbreak is the worst feeling in the world. A feeling that could've been spared if I would've truly put God first. NOW, having said that, I don't question WHY things happened the way they did. Never would I have known how to love so deeply and take care of someone and learn the power of faith in the face of a nasty disease had I not met and dated one of my best friends Josh Bennefield. Our relationship taught me many things. I don't regret the opportunity I had to share so much of my life with such an amazing person. But God wasn't truly FIRST in our relationship.I know God puts people in your life for a purpose and we go through trials to make us stronger. No one ever said it would be easy. If you sat down and talked to some of the people you consider to be the strongest, I am SURE they have a trial or two they could tell you about that made them the person they are today. Trials make us stronger, they perfect our faith and bring us closer to God. While God is working in my life, and I am learning whatever it is He wants me to learn from this, I will wait. I worry about the future so much sometimes that I forget to live in the present. I painted a little picture today to be able to look at and remind myself, no matter WHAT, it is in God's hands. God is going to take care of me because I am HIS child and I am doing everything in my power to make sure I am staying in HIS will. Friends, enjoy the little things in life. The little things are what keep you going. Tell your husband/wife, or boyfriend/girlfriend you love them. Appreciate them. Love them like they are leaving...and they won't (Good Brad Paisley song ;) Tell them how much they mean to you. Call them just to say hey. Write them a little note just to let them know they are your most favorite person in the world. THESE things are what keep you going. If you love them, don't just assume they know! REMIND THEM... OFTEN and ALWAYS. LV2DAY

Love,
me